I wanted to hate you so madly
I want to scream bloody murder, pointing toward you,
“She did it, there she is, murderer” my cold lips would mimic in daydreams
How could you plunge this rusted blade so deeply, so cruelly
As if I never existed, as if I never caressed you in the iris of my future days
Did you forget who I was? What I meant? Who am I?
Or did you simply not ever see me,
Did you stop noticing the spark in my eyes when they reflected yours
Or maybe you were looking right through me
Since you left my eyesight worsened, there’s no one to tell me to turn down my brightness
Since you left there is no one on the other side, no reason to open the door
No reason to watch films in the cinema, no reason to cook, no reason to it all
Since you left
I can’t remember how it felt when you didn’t
So why do I still sleep on the left side of the bed
Where your body used to be
purgatory chanran 